and it did not go well. Every week I have to schedule one "cheat meal" in my cheat day. I am thinking of dumping this day altogether.

I could not think of something that I would want to have in place of one of the foods I can have on the ABS Diet plan.

How screwed up is that? I could have had some fast food thing, or a donut or cinnamon roll from Specialty's or anything. Instead I had some extra Bing Cherries (totally out of season but they looked good at Costco - impulse buy) and here's the baddie two Nilla Wafer Cakesters at 110 calories a pop (wanted something super sweet and very vanilla). Oh yeah and I repeated my lunch from dinner (a whole wheat pita with marinara sauce sliced onion, a slice of deli turkey chopped up and 2 TBSP of low-fat Italian cheese- it's actually really good tackled a mild desire to run and but a slice of pizza or something as a cheat).

I told my calorie consumption on my scheduled "Cheat day" for the ABS Diet was 1200 calories. WTF? Last week my cheat was something tiny too (a small non-fat frozen yogurt with fresh strawberries).

What on earth is wrong with me? I'm I just too mental cluttered to go wild and splurge or do I just have no desire to anymore.

I guess my cheat today was that I was lazy as hell. I watched Anime on the computer in between priming my bathroom walls for painting and talking to potential new employers on the phone.

I need to get off my duff and try the new exercise dvd I bought (The Tracy Anderson Method Dance) it looks super fun but somewhat complex. I need to go out and walk my arse off throughout the city again but I find an excuse to shorten my walks even though I enjoy them.

Ridding myself of dissatisfaction this is weeks goal. I will not be so dissatisfied with every thing that I do nothing. Mr. Kettlebell I will defeat you and Mr. Speed Rope this week!

[In case you're wondering the ABS DIET FOR WOMEN is from the writer's of Women's Health Magazine along with Alexa Fishback of The Daily Fixe (I believe). I bought the books and discovered I already had the foods, I just needed to plan out my meals and snacks and schedule a time to eat them then do it. Very simple, I actually talk to my doctor's about eating on this dietary path for a long time and they read it and were very happy with the scheme of it. ABS DIET is an acronym - ABS DIET POWER - 12 foods you should have during the day to maintain a healthy body they are:

A- Almond (and other nuts)
B- Beans (your choice of)
S- Spinach (or other green veggies)

D- Diary (Low-fat)
I- Instant Oatmeal or steel cut if you have the time
E- Eggs
T- Turkey (and other lean meats)

P- Peanut Butter
O- Olive Oil
W- Whole-grain breads and cereals
E- Extra (Whey) Protein Powder
R- Raspberries (or other berries)

Those are foods your suppose eat each day - together or separately. You don't have to get every one of the 12 food items in your 3 scheduled meals and 2 scheduled snacks but it's actually very easy to. Any way the dietary plan is easy and I have lost about 7 pounds in two weeks - but remember I had Gastric Bypass Surgery so my body is a little on the extreme end of things. It either goes big with weight loss on the scale or the numbers stay the same but my sizes majorly decrease.]

Anyway, had to get that off my chest.

This week I will not allow myself to be dissatisfied with anything - my workout effort, my life in general or effort to write and complete at least 2 short stories. No dissatisfaction allowed.