So, I started smoking again because of the stress of work, and it had started out a weekend thing, but here I am smoking about half a pack a day. So I bit the bullet last night and bought some nicotine patches. I slapped one on my arm this morning, and seem to be fine. I also decided I want to be healthier again, so last night I picked up some healthy snacks at Trader Joes, and here is what is on the menu for the day:

Breakfast:
pack of instant grits (buttery flavor mmm)
a serving of dried mixed fruit
water

Lunch:
half can of tuna fish with light mayo, sweet pickle relish, and pepper
cheese (1 ounce of french brie, 2 ounces of swiss)
1/3 cup of grapes (green and red)
half of an apple
saltine crackers (I was looking for something more exotic, but the have the least calories and fat. They are left over from a stomach virus I had last week when that was all I could eat) Does anyone have any suggestions on crackers?

Snacks:
for snacks I have given myself choices;
dried fruit
pecans/almonds
carrots (with hummus)
celery sticks (with hummus)

Dinner:
Balsamic Vinaigrette Rosemary Chicken (i love trader joe's)
brown rice
broccoli

I figure I am going to be snacking in place of the cigarettes, so instead of my Easter candy (which I have throw away now) I will munch on veggies, nuts, or fruit. My coworker and I went shopping together and are sharing snacks.

Well, let me know what you think of my menu, any suggestions you have etc.

I am going to start exercising again also. Unfortunately something is wrong with my ankle...it hurts to walk. I am sure it is a combo of stress/depression/weight, so I really don't know what to do about it. I suppose I will stick to strength training until it feels better so I can walk to exercise.

Work sucks. I am depressed. I go home and sit. I think about getting up, but all I do is thing about it, and suddenly it's 11 and I up later than I want to be, but going to bed means I have to get up in the morning and go to work. My apartment is an atrocious mess, because I don't clean it, because I sit and do nothing. I don't go out. I don't hang out with friends. I am miserable. I am looking for a new job, but the company I interviewed with Monday hasn't gotten back with me, and I fear the worst, esp since it is a smaller company that seems as though it would actually care about me as an employee and not just as a bottom line number.

Anyway, I am going to try and make myself feel better by not smoking, eating healthier, and attempting exercise. Sad